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generalflirt) wrote2015-01-20 09:44 pm
generalflirt) wrote2015-01-20 09:44 pm
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~♥FIFTY-EIGHT♥~
[ Voice ]
Mmm. I wonder. Call it conjecture on my part, but what happens to a body when you stab out it's heart?
[ This world... but those are some broad assumptions on his part. About more than one thing. ]
[ Action ]
[ But as for the main part of what Masaomi Kida is doing today, he's hanging out by the fountain, standing on the edge of it with arms wide. Weakness. Weakness is what might destroy them, huh? He wonders if that's individual, or if that's the weakness of a people. He wonders what weakness actually means. Despite this, he's not with Linda for once, and there's a smile on his face. It doesn't meet his eyes, but he's hawking around for anyone in the square, particularly people he knows. And he's holding in his hands two... playing cards?
And when he spies someone, he'll have to bound up to them and ask: ]
Hello! Hello~! Let's play a little game, huuuh?
[ Because he's older now. Because it's the end, and because what else is there left for him to loose. He'll play a game which has him terrified. ]
Mmm. I wonder. Call it conjecture on my part, but what happens to a body when you stab out it's heart?
[ This world... but those are some broad assumptions on his part. About more than one thing. ]
[ Action ]
[ But as for the main part of what Masaomi Kida is doing today, he's hanging out by the fountain, standing on the edge of it with arms wide. Weakness. Weakness is what might destroy them, huh? He wonders if that's individual, or if that's the weakness of a people. He wonders what weakness actually means. Despite this, he's not with Linda for once, and there's a smile on his face. It doesn't meet his eyes, but he's hawking around for anyone in the square, particularly people he knows. And he's holding in his hands two... playing cards?
And when he spies someone, he'll have to bound up to them and ask: ]
Hello! Hello~! Let's play a little game, huuuh?
[ Because he's older now. Because it's the end, and because what else is there left for him to loose. He'll play a game which has him terrified. ]
[Action]
Lee puts on his most patient look and nods.]
O-of course, take your time.
[Action]
When I was young, I always figured that with a strong enough feeling, you could do anything. Love is a leveler, right? Like that sort of thing you see in movies where heroes are able to conquer everything and get the girl - and with all the fights I got in during those days for stupid reasons, just for the worship of violence, I sort of figured that oooh, sure. If the tie came, I could get there. And that's what I promised myself when I fell for someone for real - when I fell for... Saki. Not that she was in direct danger, mind. I mean, she just has a somewhat creepy guardian, the real danger, the danger I didn't recognize...
That was from me.
[ He swallows, and. ]
So when she was kidnapped by my enemies, this bastard named Izumii, I figured - I'll be the one to save her. I have to be the one to save her, because that's the strength of it, I could utilize all of my power because I had love at my back, and I raced with my heart being the only thing going faster than my legs, the whole way there. And I got all the way to the entrance of the building, but as soon as I got there... wouldn't you know! My legs stopped working.
I was afraid.
What would they do to me? What would happen to Saki? What if I failed? Why was I hesitating?
But still, I did.
And in the end, someone else saved her.
[ And now, finally, he lowers his hand, but he hangs his head. Even years and years later, it still hurts, it still makes his chest seize up with the idea of how weak he is. Of how abominable he as a human being truly has been ]
So I decided... that I'd just abandon it. ... No, that's putting it too lightly. Trying hard to believe in that ideology still, I convinced myself that the failing was that our feelings weren't sufficient. So I dumped her, and I went on from there, hoping against what I knew would never happen that I could find a love greater than that, someone who, next time, I would not fail.