Masaomi Kida (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
generalflirt) wrote2015-01-20 09:44 pm
generalflirt) wrote2015-01-20 09:44 pm
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~♥FIFTY-EIGHT♥~
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Mmm. I wonder. Call it conjecture on my part, but what happens to a body when you stab out it's heart?
[ This world... but those are some broad assumptions on his part. About more than one thing. ]
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[ But as for the main part of what Masaomi Kida is doing today, he's hanging out by the fountain, standing on the edge of it with arms wide. Weakness. Weakness is what might destroy them, huh? He wonders if that's individual, or if that's the weakness of a people. He wonders what weakness actually means. Despite this, he's not with Linda for once, and there's a smile on his face. It doesn't meet his eyes, but he's hawking around for anyone in the square, particularly people he knows. And he's holding in his hands two... playing cards?
And when he spies someone, he'll have to bound up to them and ask: ]
Hello! Hello~! Let's play a little game, huuuh?
[ Because he's older now. Because it's the end, and because what else is there left for him to loose. He'll play a game which has him terrified. ]
Mmm. I wonder. Call it conjecture on my part, but what happens to a body when you stab out it's heart?
[ This world... but those are some broad assumptions on his part. About more than one thing. ]
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[ But as for the main part of what Masaomi Kida is doing today, he's hanging out by the fountain, standing on the edge of it with arms wide. Weakness. Weakness is what might destroy them, huh? He wonders if that's individual, or if that's the weakness of a people. He wonders what weakness actually means. Despite this, he's not with Linda for once, and there's a smile on his face. It doesn't meet his eyes, but he's hawking around for anyone in the square, particularly people he knows. And he's holding in his hands two... playing cards?
And when he spies someone, he'll have to bound up to them and ask: ]
Hello! Hello~! Let's play a little game, huuuh?
[ Because he's older now. Because it's the end, and because what else is there left for him to loose. He'll play a game which has him terrified. ]
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We'll take turns asking someone Truth or Truth, and ask something of each other. And it goes until someone's heart can't handle the light of Absolute Truth. That seems like a fitting game for this mood, doesn't it?
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Yeah, it does seem rather fitting. [But is this even really a game?] Did you want to go first, or should I?
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So, it's only fitting, ] Naturally, I wouldn't begin a challenge like this without being prepared to suffer the first blow.
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Just out of curiosity, was it the recent announcement that inspired you to come up with this game? [The one on the journals, about getting to go home. And maybe that's a cheap question to ask considering he can sort of already tell that this is the case, but hey, he can't say he's not curious to know just how much thought you've put into this.]
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Mmmhm. You've got me - it calls for an overcoming of weakness, but more importantly... we're heading for the end, right? and if that finality is coming, then we might as well face all that we've got locked inside of our hearts. [ And he taps the pocket he put his card in ] After all, the "Masaomi Kida" I am now is going to die no matter what, and I've done all the fighting I know how to do. It's not like I can fight a dream monster - sooo. What will be, will be. And here's my "game" to symbolize facing it.
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My, this game certainly has a more dramatic taste to it than what I thought in the beginning...but, to say that "the Masaomi Kida you are now is going to die no matter what"? Isn't it a little too early to be giving up like that? I would have expected someone like you to be a little more determined to try to survive, if the person you are now is who you truly want to be, that is.
[It's a strong possibility that they would lose their memories of this place, and all of the things that changed them as a person. Maybe "Masaomi Kida" and "Cilan" and "Silver" and everyone else in Luceti will cease to exist, and the people that they used to be will simply go on with their lives as if nothing ever happened.
But, there still exists a small possibility that, while their physical appearance might go back to what it used to be, who they are on the inside and all the memories with it will make their way back somehow. Maybe things really will be different for them once they're back home again.]
...Also, I think it's your turn to ask a question now, right?
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This world won't survive, Cilan-san - I don't believe it will, and if it does it shouldn't.
[ There's more to it, of course. He's got a promise he made to himself, a promise he made to Shikamaru, a lot of things that he must face. Even if he retained his memories, he was going to lose his body. And really, it's probably for the best that the man, Masaomi Kida, dies so that the boy, Masaomi Kida, can live out that life he's been terrified of. But he'll go on anyway- ]
So then, Cilan-san, do you want to "survive?"
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[...Except that's not a proper "yes" or "no" to answer this question with, and in a way, it almost sounds more like a reassurance that he is someone like that. He is the optimistic type, he is a good mentor that others can rely on, he's not a hypocrite...]
Besides, there were good things that I don't want to forget, especially the people that I've met and befriended here. If we don't survive, and thus lose all of the fun memories that were made with everyone here, it would be a real shame, wouldn't it?
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[ He says this with a hard tone, but he is mostly deciding how much he needs to push things for Cilan. In the end, he decides... he does need to ]
I know I have memories I wouldn't forget -- but I don't know what I should be expecting of you, as much as what you are.
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[He seems confused, maybe even surprised by that statement, but let's be real here, someone like him should be smart enough to know exactly what you're talking about. (But to be fair, you are the first person in...an absurdly long time that's actually attempted to call him out on this, so that part is genuinely surprising.)]
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[ He holds out a hand now, holding out his palm for Cilan ]
"Masaomi Kida" is a coward who is playing this game because he can't confront himself. He's forcing others to rip him apart for him. And what, pre tell, is Cilan-san?
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Well, Masaomi, I think the fact that you even came up with this game is proof that you're not as afraid of confronting yourself as you might you think are. If you truly were a coward, you might not have proposed playing this at all...and since it's truth time, I should honor the bravery you've displayed so far by speaking honestly as well.
[He then closes his eyes and speaks.]
Cilan is...a restaurateur and Gym Leader of Striaton City, and an A-class Pokemon Connoisseur, as well as being a connoisseur of many other subjects as well. He's passionate, knowledgeable, reliable, kind, and just generally someone that most people can like, since he'll do his best to help everyone he meets--someone with good taste, I'd say.
[This is starting to sound like an ego trip...]
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And...he is someone who only likes to talk about his good aspects now, and tries to pretend that he doesn't have nearly as many flaws; but, if given enough time, a novel could probably be written out of all of his faults. If the Cilan of the past could see what kind of person the "Cilan" who is standing here now has become...I think he would be very disappointed...
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[ Let's just be direct here. There's... no reason to not be direct. ]
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[Or rather, he doesn't really know where to start with the things he takes issue with in regards to himself. He does consider something, though--]
...But the old me probably would have known. Back then, it felt like I had an answer for everything. And now...actually come to think of it, I never did give you a proper answer for that question you asked me a moment ago, did I?
[The one about whether or not he wanted to survive, and how he said all that stuff about being "the optimistic type" and it would be "hypocritical" to be anything else otherwise.]
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[ Is that a joke? It might have an almost sing-song tone, but his expression is really quite flat too ]
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Don't misunderstand me, I still stand by what I said before. It would be wrong of me to say that I didn't want to survive. It's just... [He thinks for a moment, before...ah, found it.] ...rather than wanting to survive, it feels like we need to survive. If we don't survive, and thus leave behind all of the memories and lessons that were gained during our stay here, then it almost feels like everything that happened here didn't matter in the end.
[Bad memories aside, if we leave and act as if nothing happened, then what was the point of being brought here to Luceti in the first place? ...Why should we even have this conversation about fixing our weaknesses if we're just going to go right back to being who we used to be before all of this?]
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[ That that's probably the wrong way to look at it - he just feels distant from who he once was in some ways. He doesn't think he would reflect poorly on it though.. quite the contrary, really.
But either way, he shrugs, accepting Cilan's answer at that. It's interesting, to say the least. And Cilan can ask him something better now ]
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He may have some mixed feelings about surviving and not wanting to give up some of the memories he has, but...he's a little envious of the Cilan of the past; he doesn't have to worry about such things, unlike the Cilan that's here in Luceti now.
Speaking of our past selves, though...]
What about you, then? If the Masaomi of the past could see the Masaomi that's standing here now...what kind of opinion do you think he would have about you?
[Cilan said that he thinks his past self would be disappointed with him. Would your past self be disappointed too, or do you think he would be proud of who you are now?]
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[ That's about the long and short of it. He's pretty sure. There's a lot more to say, but let's see it ]
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"Cool", huh? [...It's really tempting to make a joke here, but instead he lets it slide.] ...Well, I suppose I could understand why he might think that, at least in regards to the idea that our former selves would be terrified to know some of the things we've done or experienced here.
[Unless you were thinking of some other reason for why he would be terrified of you, that is.]
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[ He says this with a wink and a laugh. But then he sombers a little to add... ] But I'm also a soldier by now - or some lame approximation of one.
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[Cilan didn't get involved with missions, but from what he's seen from the drafts, you do seem to have some idea of what you're doing when you're out there fighting, and that's not actually counting the stuff involving Linda.]
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[ And really, even now... he's not sure if a soldier is something that he wants to be. It's a confusing thing ]
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